Last Saturday I had a particularly emotional day. I felt unhappy and unfulfilled and couldn’t figure out what my problem was. I let myself feel horrible and be miserable for a few hours but knew this mood was not a good look on me. (Side note: Big “Thank You” to my boyfriend for putting up with me that day.) So I put on some music (old school rap) and went to task cleaning the kitchen and bathroom. Two hours later, I was tired, sweaty but feeling better.
This was not the first time I had a day like Saturday. However, this time, I sat and thought about my life and what was causing the dissatisfaction. It all ties back to one main issue…money and my lack of control over my finances. This was not a major revelation. I have the “I am going to get control of my finances” conversation with myself at least once a month. Yet I’m still in the same situation I have been in for the last 17 years. I work hard to earn money but I also spend money frivolously instead of saving or paying down debt.
As I worked it out in my brain I realized…”Kim, you are seriously lacking self-discipline!” It’s the reason I can’t keep to a fitness routine and eat candy without a thought. It’s the reason I spend hours writing out task lists and creating routine calendars to keep myself organized only to come home and plant my butt on the couch and watch yet another episode of Grey’s Anatomy for the hundredth time. And it is why I still live pay check to pay check.
So, what am I going to do about it? I am going to be more disciplined of course. HA! If it only worked like that. Actually, I spent a few hours this past week researching self-discipline/self-control and have a solid first step to improve my overall discipline: Active Goal Setting. You can read about active goal setting on R.L. Adam’s blog Wanderlust Worker. My plan is to write out my SMART goals this week, share them on my blog and provide weekly updates on my progress. Wish me luck and stop back to see my progress!